Wednesday, October 20, 2010

One of "those" days

I was so hesitant to post what I was feeling today but I just felt like being honest....regardless that I'm almost positive I will be labeled "desperate," "inable to move on" or a "loser." Certain of it actually.

By "one of those days" I mean one of those where I miss what I thought certain was going to be my future. Miss the person who was my life and who I thought would be part of mine forever. I don't know if he'll ever, ever know how intensly and deeply I loved him.  Even after 7 years, the passion in my heart for him was as fresh as the first day I laid eyes on him. I've never loved someone like that. 

I know that for some reason this was the Lord's plan but even though much time has passed there are times when my heart gets consumed with sadness. It's hard to lose something or someone you love so intensly...and not lose them to death or some tragedy....but lost them because they, frankly, wanted to lose you in hopes to gain someone better.

I've always loved this song by Lifehouse but it opened up a whole new meaning to me in the past few years.

He said that I would be ok....and I will be. It's just one of "those" days.

1 comment:

Katie said...

This song is on one of the Atlanta mixes I left with you. It's one of my play it and cry songs. Caring about people is so discouraging sometimes. It feels like you never make it anywhere.